Tuesday 29 December 2009

Anyone have a black bodycon skirt?

Shopping with ciara is my favourite thing.

  • looking everywhere for bodycon skirts that aren't there anymore! Ciara only realises she doesn't hate things once they go out of style, that's how she rolls ;)
  • doing good deads! we found a grannies phone, and contacted a load of people in her phonebook, looked at her pictures, and got to see her be happy when she came back to collect it :)
  • seeing old friends that we don't like anymore. always fun.
  • meeting new friends via lighter possession! always good.
  • going to different shoe shops because i can't decide which one i want to buy my new converse out of, even though they're exactly the same. ciara bes very patient with me :)
  • having that long awaited smoke. hurm.
  • her being there and telling me to buy things, instead of just being like "i dunnnooooo" like everyone else agrrrrr
  • only buying band tops if we like the band. it's a sacred rule.
  • ROMANTIC MEALS. in dingy restaurants. i love it when one of us pays, then the next time the other one does. We are awesome.
  • Cups with two straws =D
This is ciara dodgeing the photo. with the granny phone. in one of our favourite restaurants.

Loving life.

Christmas Times

Hello strawberry.
Mr strawberry.
Hi.

Did everyone have a nice christmas? :) i got some lovely presents.

I put the tree up on christmas eve, it was cool because we haven't done that in years.

Spent a load of time with my bro, which is ace. We watched the south park movie last night it was awesomeeeee, he's like the soundest person ever in my life.

The christmas break has been really amazing to be honest. I've worked, i've loved, i've hugged, and i've spent time with the favouritest people in my life, apart from two who i really wanna see... ): Oh and i've blown like 150 quid on clothes alone in the space of like 2 weeks EEK. And i intend to spend more! oh yes i do.

I've spent alot of time with the main man in my life, which has been beautiful. I feel really close to him now, closer than i've ever felt, but i also feel like there's alot more to find out about him, more parts of his body to explore, more ways to kiss, to touch.. more stories to hear, more secrets to be told. Which is exactly perfect for me. I'm excited to be loved right now.

Don't have much else to say right now.
Latazzzzz mista straaaawwwwberryy ;)

Sunday 20 December 2009

Snowheart <3

(8) Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this..still life.
Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
(Oh, you won't catch me around here)
Blood and tears,
They were here first. (8)


Snow's here.
the first time i saw a speck of it, i was under a street lamp, holding a warm hand.
i wanted to take a picture of it.
instead i just stood there and looked at it, until i was pulled away.


Today it's so deep.
I did such a pretty picture in it.
do you like it?




Last night was awesome.
I felt a bit like this...






If that makes sense..

i had some beautiful kisses.

i felt really proud when two strands of my life met and mixed.

and i observed the people i shared a tiny room with in a completely different light.

which caused them to ask if i was ok, which i thought was hilarious :)

i cleaned up my best friends sick.

then i cleaned up another friend's sick, who was only sick because the other chick was sick.

pahahahahaha.

then i ran downstairs with this girl. and we were mesmerized by the fact that suddenly the outside of her house was completely coated in white, untouched by footprints as it was 5.30 in the morning. i pressed my face against the glass, breathed, and forgot everything for about 3 minutes. it was really special to me.

that's all for now.

enjoy the snow while it's here please, as the serenity and beauty of untouched snow cannot be matched by any other sight.

Monday 7 December 2009

Pick your pretty heart right off the ground! (or your boyfriends bed)

(8) And so it is.. Just like you said it should be..
We'll both forget the breeze..Most of the time..
I can't take my eyes off you..I can't take my eyes...
I can't take my mind off you..
I can't take my mind...
My mind...
My mind...
..'Til I find somebody (8)

I had a really unusual night on sunday.
I went to my boyfriends house.
And like.. i've been before, but this was like the first time with just us..

There were times where i felt a little awkward.. like i was making it awkward by saying things that didn't make sense.. then there were times when we were overly comfortable with each other, which was a bit wierd too, because i felt maybe it was too comfortable. I don't want us to lose mystery with each other, if that makes sense.

It was nice though, it was easy.
we just talked for a while, and... i like just talking to him.
i can just talk the biggest load of shite,
i can let my thoughts just spill out.
and i don't hold back.
if i have a dream about alien tadpoles, i can explain it to him.
and he'll listen, that's the bit that throws me.
wowee zowee.

AHH I JUST FOUND A SAY ANYTHING SONG I'VE NEVER HEARD BEFORE! OHMYFUCKINGGOD. lifelovingalltheway.. You should probably listen to this, everytime i hear a song i've never heard before by max.. it just leaves a really stupid grin on my face. i look like an idiot right now.. Ciara will probably like it, she likes things with piano's that go DUM..DUM..DUM and she does this little cute thing where she acts out playing the piano when she's demonstrating coldplay songs :) read her blog right now.




Ok i was telling a story.
We watched jackass, and some spoof movies that im really only used to watching with my bro.(God i miss my bro.)

And it was.....content.
I woke up in his arms.
And it felt real, and pure.
Except that he didn't get up for like four hours.
And he kept waking up and telling me half of his dreams, then falling back asleep, which was pretty dayumm funny.
I swear that boys face was tattooed in my brain
..he doesn't have much to look at in his room haha.
here's a picture of our hands.
i was liking it.


Then he made me this crazy meal for breakfast/lunch and it was like pasta, with garlic bread, and two random waffles, we were really living the student dream (he lives in like the university area of belfast)
And after he was like saying that he was really tired and everything, it made me feel like an evil lifesucker superheroe or something! pulling energy from those i love!


Awh mannnnnn and my money came through, and i am BUZZING about shopping times! i am wanting some new black heels, i seen these AMAZING shoes from topshop boutique, but they're like 130 quid.. i don't know if i could bring myself to do it like, because they'd only end up a mess, and i don't really wear heels, but dammit i want a treat :)


AHH ANOTHER SAYANYTHING SONG, AND ITS FUCKING NEW!


NEW SONGS, MEANING A NEW ALBUM,


MEANING MAYBE A TOUR?


MEANING MAYBE I'M GOING TO BE TRAVELLING TO WHEREVER THE FUCK MAX IS.




Quote of the day-
"words just stop meaning stuff"
-ciara confused.

Saturday 5 December 2009

This is life.






-Where are we?
-We're everywhere...and anywhere...
...Together

Monday 30 November 2009

The First <3

I tried to find a picture for this blog...
i really did.
Like i wanted this to be a picture blog.
But nothing fits.

I tried to put lyrics in too,
I can't find them either.

What is it that i want to say at this point?
I am happy.
I am complete.
You told me that you're mine.
I didn't write back.
I'm telling you now,
I am yours.
I love you.

Wednesday 25 November 2009

Nutella on top please.

I'm amazed by myself and my brothers attempt to look after ourselves.
Instead of heating up soup, we ordered in two curry half and halfs.
For dessert I scooped out some vanilla ice cream, my bro got out a rolling thingy and starting beating the life out of a packet of cookies, then continued to cut up a banana and add it to the dessert.
We mutually brainstormed when we seen the nutella.
It just had to go on.





Oh! and I ended up getting those awesome texts I wanted, the kind that you wake up to at 4 o'clock in the morning, and don't think it's real..

I think maybe he had a near death experience, or was high, or just got hit on the head, that's how cool they were.

Lovin' life!

Outties xx

Sunday 22 November 2009

We are not afraid of you grown-ups!

Wells..
what what. forgot to write about corrymeela.
It was all good, then WHOOSH, me and GG went off and suddenly there was a search party going on.
blehh, they were gonna send us home and all.
Whatever.
Still need to talk to the prinicipal etc, and they rang my momma.
blehh again.
And consequently, everyone think's we're sleeping together. what what.





But i am IMMENSELY happy, i'm lovin my new job! :)


I'm lovin talkin to daniel, you are ace.

I'm lovin new followers! welcome, ellis and the_blanga_is :)

lovin life for the win !

xx

Conversation of the day

miss dowds.... O'driscoll i love you =D says:
i just fully came thinking about you
boner or wah
Hey Daryl. Wantin a bitta Gavshmexx says:
HAHAHAHA
babe
miss dowds.... O'driscoll i love you =D says:
i know you want me so bad
Hey Daryl. Wantin a bitta Gavshmexx says:
i do
miss dowds.... O'driscoll i love you =D says:
come sit on santas lap
Hey Daryl. Wantin a bitta Gavshmexx says:
thats sick :L

Friday 20 November 2009

Thursday 19 November 2009

breathe. breathe. don't hyperventilate.

I've seen love go by my door
It's never been this close before
Never been so easy or so slow.
Been shooting in the dark too long
When somethin's not right it's wrong.
I've only known careless love,
It's always hit me from below.
This time around it's more correct
Right on target, so direct.
Purple clover, Queen Anne lace,
Crimson hair across your face,
You could make me cry if you don't know.
Can't remember what I was thinkin' of
You might be spoilin' me too much, love.

Flowers on the hillside, bloomin' crazy,
Crickets talkin' back and forth in rhyme,
Blue river runnin' slow and lazy,
I could stay with you forever
And never realize the time.



Situations have ended sad,
Relationships have all been bad.
But there's no way I can compare
All those scenes to this affair,
You're gonna make me lonesome when you go.




You're gonna make me wonder what I'm doin',
Stayin' far behind without you.
You're gonna make me wonder what I'm sayin',
You're gonna make me give myself a good talkin' to.

"Nothing that's worth having in this world comes easy"

You're gonna have to leave me now,
I know.
You're gonna make me lonesome when you go.

Tuesday 17 November 2009

Pretty In Punk



(8) I'm too terrified and would you mind if I sat next to you and watched you smile
So many kids but I only see you
And I don't think you notice me
Well I've seen your boyfriend and I don't think he treats you right
But that's none of my business is it? (8)

Prom. Formal. Whatever.
Was well good.
Actual formal was ok, like they gave us free booze, that was cool.
my date didn't seem to appreciate me drinking, and i had planned not to, but when i seen one of my mates roll in blocked, and the literal 6 minute hug he gave me, i couldn't really resist.
sooooooo we danced for ages... and me and The Babe (guy who i've been helping with art) went out for like a zillion smokes, and i voted him for prom king. instead he got the "stud" award and got a dom as a price. how queer.

Then we were standing outside the toilets and actual prom king walked past and i was like GIVE M THE CROWN and he was like.. "if you kiss him" and i was like GIVE HIM THE CROWN and he said it again and pushed us together, which was like.. a tad awkward after.. i was like whoa that wasn't forced at all.. cya..
then we went for another smoke and i was like checking how much it was raining.. and The Babe came over and like.. whoa man it was ace like. it was so damn good.
whoa. Felt bad about my date though =/
And jehoviahs witness asked me and my friend to dance! then he held me and spun me around and was trying to teach me how to dance ahhh was so ledge.

pfft, then the sportsbowl! legende!
everyone gave me drink..
me and Matt were like running about with a big bottle of apple sours.

i got told to get off the snooker table.

i got chatted up by a really handsome guy but i wasn't feeling it.

i helped out this chick who is just soooo beautifulll because some wanker said he didn't wanna go out with her, even though he brought her to the formal and kissed her n all :(

i raced another girl up all these bowling alleys.
was basically just an ace night.
got in at 5 but my momma got up to see if i was ok bless her..
hmm..
picture time.


Saturday 14 November 2009

Robert Smith Vs. Dracula

my brother wrote that on the blackboard in the kitchen.
i'm really impressed by how legendary he is.


i went to the formal last night, but i don't really wanna write about it yet.
i'll write about it when i find pictures, and piece together the parts of it i've forgotten.
i was watching scrubs the other day, and JD had a list of things he wanted to do before he turned 30.
then i was listening to this song, and i was like... hey i should write a "20 things before 20" list.
yano, give me something to work towards. what else am i doing lately.





so listen to the song and have a read. i have a feeling you will be impressed. and want to write your own list. link me if you are legend enough to do this.





  • work somewhere where i actually get a good discount and a christmas bonus. like topshop. or new look. the only thing i've ever got was an impulse set from an employer who would rather pretend to care by wrapping up a 3 pound set than actually give you a bonus. sneaky.
  • get with a jehoviahs witness, its seems like a bit of a challenge.
  • get busy under water.
  • go to an outdoor festival, complete with mud and dope.
  • learn to drive, and buy dream car. something that looks like it's out of a bad 80's cop drama, that makes noise when you start the engine, and has an unusual quirk that'll get ya nervous going for M.O.T. add a lil drama. will they notice the back door is aways jammed and i have to crawl through the back seat to leave in my shopping? or pass me on that lil wink i just gave the depressed test guy?
  • go on a road trip, overcome fear of not washing for more than a day.
  • do a really bad karaoke in a club. preferably a gay one, where transvestites force me into it. i always regret not taking that up.
  • properly chat up a girl and buy her a drink.
  • do 20 shots in a row, preferably outside Custom house square, on the pavement, with ciara. film this.
  • attempt to live with someone outside my family for more than a week.
  • get a piercing, and a tattoo
  • shave some of my hair. maybe an undercut just, with something like "rabbit" shaved into it. throw everyone off guard when i wear it up. that would rock.
  • get a romantic interest to buy me a little cute bracelet, that's like the only present i've ever wanted to recieve from a dude.
  • sleep under the stars, or at least try.
  • flash someone.
  • kiss someone deadly looking in the pouring rain.
  • go out to dinner with someone cool and actually eat infront of them. get over this fear of eating, daryl.
  • be in a band. even if it's a shit one.
  • drink to the point of not remembering anything the next day. like Dude, wheres my car and The hangover.
  • come back to this list and tick off everything i've done


that's me done for now.

peace out homies. xx

Wednesday 11 November 2009

Remembering Sunday


(8) And even though she doesn't believe in love
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut (8)


I can't be assed with a proper blog today, so it's going to be all different shizz that doesn't take alot of work. Listen to 'Remembering sunday' by all time low, its fucking great.

Convo with roisin about shoes.


miss dowds.... says:
Ew
Hey Daryl. Rois is a buck says:
shuddup
miss dowds.... says:
Dont wear them
Hey Daryl. Rois is a buck says:
shuddup loserface
miss dowds.... says:
Ull get cooties..
Lol
=D
only jokin ciaras a babe an a half
What u at then?
You slabbbbbbering =)
Ill knack yee out..
With hugs!
Hey Daryl. Rois is a buck says:
HAHAHAHA
i love that
quote of the day.
miss dowds.... says:
Haahaaa sweeeeeet =)
Ur my 'babe of the day'
Hey Daryl. Rois is a buck says:
i have an intense love for u baby.
miss dowds.... says:
Yayyyyyy! Haha dude my date with josh is on friday 13th haahaa x
Hey Daryl. Rois is a buck says:
so's my formal!
BAD TIMES
miss dowds.... says:
Haahaa!
Good start for me an josh lol


Convo with Sean about male insecurities.


Say what u want about me but modern warefare 2 if omg brilliant says:
talk about penis envy ' mines is 12inches , mines is 13 , ive got a tatoo on mines ..... ooooooooo nice '
Hey Daryl. Rois is a buck says:
hahahahahahahahahahaha
big penis' are overrated.
Say what u want about me but modern warefare 2 if omg brilliant says:
aint that music to my ears lmao oj
im pretty sure im like at the normal size for my age
Hey Daryl. Rois is a buck says:
good, glad to hear ur normal
apparently 5-7 inches is average.
pfft.
Say what u want about me but modern warefare 2 if omg brilliant says:
for what age ?
Hey Daryl. Rois is a buck says:
im guessing 18
Say what u want about me but modern warefare 2 if omg brilliant says:
it better be
Hey Daryl. Rois is a buck says:
THERE IS HOPE FOR AVERAGE SIZED PENIS' EVERYWHERE.

This picture is class :) I can't wait to drive!


These are beautiful lyrics, make me happy.

Oh, I can see now
That all of these clouds are following me
In my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be

I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak but you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt
Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair

Monday 9 November 2009

eugh. choices suck out my life.

(8) Will you meet me halfway? (8)

Today i realised that you cannot keep control of everything, all the time, no matter how hard you try.

I cannot control the people who have some kind of a superiority complex.
I cannot control the fact that i am no longer the smartest person..
I can't help that i feel i'm growing apart from people, so fast that it's hard to remember who exactly i'm growing apart from...
I can't make my teacher tell me what to do, fuck it, she doesn't even know.
I can't control the way i feel this very moment.

I can't control my urge to throw everything away, to start over once again.
And follow my heart, rather that these stupid, stupid rational thoughts.

I want to be happy again, i hate that this school is making me change as a person. I have to do something.

xx

Saturday 7 November 2009

The End Of Nothing

When you know..
That my heart is in a pretty disorder
And you should know..
That in my heart you fill every corner



I really give up.

Friday 6 November 2009

17p doughnuts and 13p water.

Today was awesome.
I found out my formal date is buying my ticket, he's like the most soundest guy ever.
He said he's getting my momma chocolates and me a corsage :)
I hope he gets me a nice one.

An old friend of mine mentioned my favourite flower casually in conversation last week
and i was like woooow.... what?
and he'd remembered from like ages ago.....
that really touched me like....

Formal date brought me to tesco's today (my mate bought such cheap food... if i was ever a hobo i'd try to live in tesco's toilets and just buy baked beans and bottled tap water) and thankfully he's a good driver.
I dragged my friend along, and she was stuck beside this absolute babe.. like he was one of the first people i noticed in that school. she didn't really see it until she had a dream about him.. and her opinion changed.
Then he started moaning at me because i hadn't acknowledged him on the bus, he said i always ignore him so i'm gonna make an effort.
I really wanna know what the craic is with him, i heard he like won't kiss anyone until he knows he's gonna marry them.
That's a strong belief if i've ever heard one i tell ya.

well's gonna go here.
was gonna see if The Dude wanted to meet up, but if he doesn't i think i shall just go with the formal date to get his outfit. bless him.

Welcome! new follower Gaby.
Thanks for the love people.
Xo

Tuesday 3 November 2009

"You Look Like Snoopy And It Makes Me Smile"

(8) Why would I have to quit if time makes me older ?
Why do they wonder why I never get bored ?
How could I tell them that I'll never let go
But hey, you're my man but they just won't understand (8)

Had a bit of a shitty day today.
I feel like i'm not fitting in as well as i probably should be.
It's probably because i'm not trying.
But i have this wierd superiority thing, like i don't feel like it should be ME who has to try.

Eugh i'm not a likeable person sometimes.
Like i really could not be assed today.
I ignored some people when they talked to me.
I got the bus with this girl and stared out the window the whole time, too wrapped up in my own thoughts to acknowledge her, until we got off the bus and i talked to her again.
She's really nice..
Suspiciously nice.

This week has been really hectic, was in Bristol and then i was in glasgow.
Glasgow was so so cool, i really loved it.
Bristol was awesome aswell, i really liked catching up with Ronnie, i missed him.
We played taptap revenge on the plane, he kept shaking it scarily it was so damn funny.
We went to some cool places, and he took me on like a pretend date to this italian place, it was class, then he whipped out this 50% off voucher, it made it look like he was a cheap boyfriend or something, which i thought was hilarious :)

I caught up with Paulie aswell.
It was really unusual to be with him again.
I felt like something is missing.
He was a good boyfriend to me, i really wish my head had been in the right place, i might have treated him better.
But i guess people can't help how they feel.
You can't help being in love with someone else.
I'm trying to make it up to him though, so i bought him a cookie.

Quote of the day-

"1...2....*points to a cloud* THAT'S NOT A SHEEP!"
-roisin as she counted the "sheep" on the pjs she borrowed off me

Tuesday 27 October 2009

favourite arcade.

im so sick of being melodramatic.
so im going to write this with no stupid lyrics, no stupid metaphors, just like it is.

i've been seeing my "boyfriend" on and off for like a year and a bit..
yet we've only been offical for not even a month.
and in this month, i have seen him like...three times?!
all three times i have went to him.
in this month, he has stood me up like.. three times.
so he's stood me up the same amount of times i've seen him.

what i'd like to know is, what have i actually got out of this month?
i've got collectively like seven hours of happiness with him.
he doesn't text me unless we're making plans, so i haven't had those little awesome times either when you get a text that makes you smile and you feel loved, nope, haven't had that.
thinking about it, he doesn't even text me when we ARE making plans.

the bottom line is.. i can't see other people, and i can't see him either? im basically single, but not allowed to see anyone.

self esteem is like this much *holds thumb and finger apart*

it's not that we don't have a great time when we're together, and i do love him, but i'm starting to wonder if this is the right thing.

personally i think people should have equal amounts of respect for each other, take turns in visiting each other, and WANT to see each other, in a relationship. clearly, i have none of these things.

i just want him to show me he loves me. right now he's just another guy.

Monday 26 October 2009

Hey.. HEY.. don't you give your heart away.

(8) But I've been waiting a long time to hold your hand, Or something like that.
I'm not a soldier and I'm not a king, But I can play a mean guitar
And you can talk to me about almost anything, Without worrying. (8)

Hello kelly are a really good new band i just discovered, definately check them out. http://www.myspace.com/hellokelly


I'm still in a bad mood.
I starting to wonder about exactly how much respect he actually has for me, if he can't even let me know what he's doing. fuck it. Eugh i'm sick of it like.
I'm starting to doubt myself.


Whatever. Getting back in touch with paulie, i realised quite recently that i've abandoned people that meant a hell of a lot to me, i've been selfish and cold. I'm gonna get them back into my life.
I can't believe i've acted this way.

Welcome, new follower daniel coogan :) check him out, he's cool :)

Saturday 24 October 2009

Best not be fucking with the best prom ever.

(8) Everyone in highschool will worship.. The fucking ground I walk on
If it was up to me
I'll never be a target..I'll never be a fucking virgin
But it's not up to me
(you make me hard, you make me hard, you make me hard, you make me..)
Best not be fucking with the.. Best prom ever (8)


If i could wear anything to my formal it would be this

(urban outfitters, £60 and topshop £130)

but unfortunately my money hasn't came through yet, and i'm not working until christmas time. eughhhhh...

Monday 19 October 2009

To The Formal I Say!

(8) And you were wild and crazy.. Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated
Got away by some mistake and now.. I miss screamin' and fightin'..
And kissin' in the rain.. It's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name..
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you.. (8)


Well...
Got asked to the formal today, sort of excited/don't really want to go at all.
Gonna ask my man if he minds me going or not.
The dude didn't even ask me direstly he got "hot" head boy to come over and ask.
I said i'd think about it just.
Wanna buy a cool new dress.
Hells yeah.

What else? Gig on saturday was quite good.
Although as roisin said, it sort of felt like a wierd half filled school disco.
It was in City Hall.
Which was cool.
And we found Dil and Josh and their mate which was awesome, just hung out with them basically all night.

At one point me and my boyfriend got up to listen to the band, which weren't really my thing..as far as i can remember (eek), but he had his arm around me and stuff. I really liked that, it made me happy.
Roisin said we were one of those sickening couples.
Yesss.......Life Ambition hahaha
I knew i'd get my turn!
Well here's some pictures.
Aww kinda wish i'd gone one with the bf now. That would have been cute, i wish we had pictures.







Check out that crazy mask me and rois found on the way home! AHH MARKSIES ARE WIERD.

love.

Quote of the day-

"its like walking around in the dark trying to find you and you have a match but you won't light it"
-Dil on me appearing offline on msn


Friday 16 October 2009

restinpeace

(8) Ill love you with all the madness in my soul (8)

My hamster died in my hands last night.
I watched her breathing escalate, then fall gradually..
I watched her suffer.
I watched her last attempt to move.
I held her and talked to her like she understood.
I shed tears that i couldn't wipe away, i didn't want to let go.
I watched as she took her last breath.
And i didn't believe that she was gone.

I understand that she was "just an animal"
But to watch death happen right infront of my eyes was something that tore me into pieces.

I'm just glad she didn't die alone.

R.I.P NoodleBear

Monday 12 October 2009

Perfection.

(8) I got so much love.. For you darlin' and I,
I wanna let you know how I feel..
And it's true.. that I love you..
And it's true.. your the only one..
and I do, I adore you.. And it's true.. girl
You make me feel alive.. (8)

Haven't blogged properly in ages, i've realised.
Ended up drawing the last couple of my last post with the big lips, i really like it.
It's amazing how much a summer can change you.
I even see changes in the quality of my work.
The only thing that really sucks is that i truely love a piece when i'm working on it, like passionately put everything in to it, as much as i can.
Then when it's done, i keep finding all theses shitty faults.
It's like.. making me wonder why i do anything.
That guy in my class is only doing it to get a grade.
I could never do anything for solely that purpose.

I wish i didn't strive for perfection like i often do.
I want perfect pictures to be taken.
Perfect art to be created.
Perfect friendships to be formed.
Perfect love to be made.
I want to be perfect, in my own way.
But no-one really knows what that is, exactly.

Sunday 4 October 2009

A kiss..

I really want to draw a couple for art, I want to cover everything with people.. Maybe one of these I think.. ?


I like this guy's tattoos :)

I like this. It's a nice way to kiss. I like the way their bodies are



That is so cute ^^
If i drew her, my art teacher wouldn't get at me for making everyone's lips too pouty.

Ah ha! a loophole :)


Saturday 3 October 2009

Legend Lifetimes.


(8) Don't you shiver
Shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you (8)

Life is so awesome right now.. whoa's.
Like i had such a shitty time last weekend.. i'm still recovering.
I still feel shit about it.
But not as much now.
But recently things seem pretty good =/
I'm happy, i'm pleased..
I'm.... satisfied..
Hm.

Went to Belfast again today, was pretty ace.

First of all, I met this dude James when i was getting on the bus, and he just like dumped a tent on the road and got back on the bus and i was like = dude.. and he waved me up to the back where he was sitting with his two mates and like halfway through the bus drive i realised they both had tails.

No joke.

Tails.


And he was talking about 'Furries' and he goes 'but you don't know what furries are' and i was like... "erm.. actually man, i do" and for the first time he actually looked embarrassed, but then was strangely impressed that i knew this. Anyone who does not know what furries are should like.. check that out paha. Was gonna get a pic up here but like.. can't do it :
When they got off the bus they kept their tails on. Bus driver got wacked up the face by james' tail and like his expression was priceless :L

Met up with Roisin and just slummed it out. I got a new skirt :) I really like it, even though it's see-through so i'm just always gonna have to wear stuff under..




This guy tried to get us to go to this gig, and had like a band member on hand to tell us how good they are. I thought that was pretty funny like.. it's like he had nothing better to do than wander the streets trying to convince people to listen to him. And his mate was like "if you two aren't there i'm personally going to hunt ya's down" and we were like TOPSHOP and sprinted.

What else.. Got the bus and my mate was there, so it was good to have someone to talk to.. But it was wierd aswell, like with the history we have etc.. and he's fully on the rebound, even though he tries to deny it.. it was wierd. I stole his hat which was funny. That is a good hat. My life's mission is to have that hat.

So apart from Rois trying to copy me today ("i think i'm gonna get glasses like yours.." "how do you put your hair up like that?") hahaha by the end of the day it was a joke like, she's awesomee :)

Oh and he made me waffles. I love him.

Quote of the day-

"Remember we used to play this? where the FUCK is he now?"
-Roisin on the where's wally? book we found in urban outfitters