a month already.

...this is it.
it's time to move on.

i'm all over the place.

(8) so i breathe deep, so i can't sleep, but my eyes weep, as my soul creeps. i'm so sorry. (8)

everything is so mixed up.
and there is no one to fix it.

Dear Heart

Dear Heart,
you've had some tough times. the first guy i really liked hurt you. you kept pumping away, even though my whoreing made you empty. you skipped a beat at that guy who completely stood out, the guy i wasn't sure cared. and pounded all those times i didn't listen to you, i listened to my body. i gave you away. you got broken far too many times, and fixed far more.
i feel you now. you are unsure whether to slow down or speed up.
i don't know what to do.
so i guess i'll have to follow you.

Snowheart <3

(8) Oily marks appear on walls

Where pleasure moments hung before.

The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this..still life.

Hide and seek.

Trains and sewing machines.

(Oh, you won't catch me around here)

Blood and tears,

They were here first. (8)

Snow's here.

the first time i saw a speck of it, i was under a street lamp, holding a warm hand.

i wanted to take a picture of it.

instead i just stood there and looked at it, until i was pulled away.

Today it's so deep.

I did such a pretty picture in it.

do you like it?

Last night was awesome.

I felt a bit like this...

If that makes sense..

i had some beautiful kisses.

i felt really proud when two strands of my life met and mixed.

and i observed the people i shared a tiny room with in a completely different light.

which caused them to ask if i was ok, which i thought was hilarious :)

i cleaned up my best friends sick.

then i cleaned up another friend's sick, who was only sick because the other chick was sick.

pahahahahaha.

then i ran downstairs with this girl. and we were mesmerized by the fact that suddenly the outside of her house was completely coated in white, untouched by footprints as it was 5.30 in the morning. i pressed my face against the glass, breathed, and forgot everything for about 3 minutes. it was really special to me.

that's all for now.

enjoy the snow while it's here please, as the serenity and beauty of untouched snow cannot be matched by any other sight.