you make me feel so pretty.

First touch of snow with the one you love.

Snow's back :)
It's funny how people complain about this weather.
And true, i wanna wear my summery clothes.
But i only have summer clothes.
Gotta layer i guess.
But it's pretty magical to see snow.
It makes me feel like i'm in a disney movie.
I really wanna take a walk in it. but i doubt anyone would wanna come.
No one that mattered anyway.

The lights keep flickering on and off.
I'm curled up all warm in bed.
But scared.
I wish i had some lips to kiss me.
And maybe a hand to hold mine.
:)

i love that lavender blonde

dancing
holding hands
giggle giggle
strawberry flavoured kisses
feeling upside down!
heatwave loving
special eyes
trees all green
leaves crunching!
cuddle cuddle
skipping along
purple raindrops
slipping in ice
cutie in patterned tights
white sheets
smelling real good
...she makes me fall in love! :)
tra la la la de dahh

i can't find any reason to get up.

.....and it's like past 3.

i need a kiss and a hug real bad :(

I like you alot-lot. Think you're really hot-hot.

cherry cherry boom boom.
well i'm not feeling as insecure today.
actually i feel pretty damn good.
i just bought clothes, my favourite thing :)
i <3 Topshoppp :)

i lose myself inside your mouth (8)
me and The Dude were fb'in last night, and it was good. i feel reassured. and this is good. it's good. but saying that, talking to him just made me want to skip this time apart and just see him again.
how long is "time" i wonder?

oh well.
i'm adoring white vintage dresses atm. what are you adoring..

Don't look at my relationship status.

I don't even know what to say right now.

I don't know what to think.

This is so fucking stupid.

Instead of communicating, and instead of just fucking compromising,

We're doing this.

He's "single" and i'm trying to be casual about the whole thing.

I'm trying to get attention.

And he's pretending like i didn't ask him if he's going to be seeing other people.

What's the point now?

Everything could be everything. To my awesome followers! :)

This is a small blog to say thanks to you guys. thanks for following me, regardless of whether you read my blogs, skim over them, or just have me in your list. you 21 people make me feel like i'm doing something for some reason, whatever that may be. so i appreciate it. welcome also amber :)

later xo

With every worthless word we get more far away

(8) hate's going round.. breakin many hearts (8)

it's like you're right infront of me..
but i can't see you
right beside me..
but i can't touch you
your lips parted in anticipation..
but i can't kiss you
your arms stretched out..
but i can't hold you
your body pressed so close to mine..
but i can't feel you
it's like you're with me.....

..but i can't love you

A dedication to Daniel Coogan :)

this is a blog for my dear friend.

this is to tell you that things can be happy. i want you to be happy. and that i'm sorry, the reason why i couldn't read those posts was because i had too much shit going on in my own life to have to worry about other people. i'm selfish i guess? but in a way, i'm just trying to stop from breaking down under these things, these pressure monsters!

sometimes i think you'd be better not listening to my problems too, there's only so much one person can take.

eek.. x

We went on holiday by mistake!

Sit down, man
Take control.
Find your neutral space.

Dream a little dream.

i got in a taxi, the same taxi that took me to his house all those times before.

when i saw him, his face distorted in panic and disgust. he looked me up and down and asked me why i was only wearing a towel.

"i'm just out of the shower", i said, "and i only expected sex.." he fussed about, looking for clothes i could wear. i asked him what the problem was and he said "i'm introducing you to my parents tonight dari!"

...and i didn't know what to feel.

i miss him so much today..

I don't know what to call this post tbh.

Some things make me

SO ANGRY.

So i was talking to my momma earlier.

We talked about raising kids, and morals.

And i talked about if i ever had my own kids..

the things i'd worry about would be who my children were with.

For some reason molestation came up.

I said things had happened to my friends and "i've learned from them"

So she looked at me.

She knew i wasn't right.

She knew i wasn't happy.

So i told her what happened.

I told her that he wasn't my first.

And she was glad, she's glad my first is not something i will regret.

Thats all.

Can innocence have two sides?

Dark...

And Light...

Never Shout Never!

(8) Next thing.. we're touching

You look at me it's like you've hit me with lightening! (8)

Today.

Think about the future.

Draw a picture.

Hug someone who you care for.

Feel whole, feel complete, belong.

Look at the sun.

Listen to a song that makes you happy.

Dream about things that could happen, things you would like to happen.

Look in the mirror and smile at the awesome things about yourself.

Accentuate the most noticeable thing about you, don't hide yourself.

Make every second count.

Don't procastinate- just do it :)

Only kiss, only hug, only touch if you mean it.

Never let anyone down.

Love.

... :)

Cassie's therapy video

Cassie's therapy video is Eri's very own blogger tag, apparently she does it every month! I am going to follow her in a minute :)

The task: fill in 12 likes, 1 love and 8 hates like Cassie in her therapy video. Below, the bolded things are what you MUST include. Unfortunately the people who i would have tagged have already done it. silly silly. so i guess i'm going to have to make more blogger friends. But if anyone decides to do it link me so i can look see :)


Abracadabra, Wow!
I like boys with nice tummys and beautiful kisses and girls with adorable accents and hair in their eyes who are comfortable with their bodies and never change for anyone!
I like when I make plans to run away
I like people who smile all the time
I like innocence
I like listening to songs that make me very happy :)
I like when things go to plan
I like hearing from my father
I like drawing what's in my head
I like lovely letters coming for me in the post when i'm not expecting them :)
I like writing about everything, then reading things back and remembering things other people forget.
I like when the beast is about to die and I start to cry, but I don't have time to, because everything is BAM ok :)
I like when people do lovely things for others and don't expect anything back.
I love lieing with my man. When I want cuddles and suddenly he's there. When he kisses me in lovely ways. When he does special things for me or surprises me :)
Today I had a ciggarette and a lolly pop in the sun, with someone I very much missed and friends who are brand new, but somehow feeling I belong :)

In some ways, I love everything.
Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular
I like things that I like but I love everything
There’s more choice in like
Cos even the worst things have things you love in them
I don’t know what you mean about things I hate

I hate when some people can never see the good in anything
I hate people who use loads of freaking exclaimation marks!!!!!!! paha eugh
I hate karma and how it doesn't matter how many granny phones you give back, things still don't go well.
I hate when I don't see ciara for ages :( because I miss her when we don't hang out..
I hate when my friends are unhappy
I hate looking after people who are blocked, and the money spent on a night that I just spend looking after someone who is stupid.
I hate not knowing what someone is thinking but in a way, I wouldn't want to know bad things.
I hate people who play games with each other.
I hate I hate this, wow. . .
Sorry.

We had a promise made. We were in love.

(8) I really can't believe.. I lost myself again (8)

i loathe when you crave something so badly that it eats you up inside..
you don't close your eyes in fear of imagining it..
you don't let your hands wander incase you remember the touch.
you hold your breath, because it's so hard to forget, when the rhythm of lips colliding is seared into your tongue.
when you're so close to what you need, and yet you can't reach.
when every heartbeat pulls with magnetic force.

together.

Hit my self destruct button?

i can't think right now. today i had my first driving lesson, which was so stressful, like i nearly crashed ten times. in school all day i was fucking ill and couldn't concentrate. then i spent half an hour fucking trying to convince my mother that my boyfriend isnt stringing me along. why am i doing this? she's convinced he doesn't treat me well. so i ring him like he asked me to so that he can come round. he says he's tired now. this doesn't bother me, but what my mum thinks does. so im cheeky to him GRRR