This most likely will be boring

i need to get my head together and sort shizz out, what the hell do i need to do?

ring that metal detector guy
send daniel something
get ronnie a fucking bday present from ages ago
get art back from old school
book theory test, STUDY
JOB INTERVIEW? ask
go back in time and do more lessons BEFORE summer dumbass
ring roisin and see what the craic is with these fucking festival tickets, damn
patch things up with people :/
...and a few other things that can't be mentioned incase people see.
stress.

As time goes by.

the strange thing about this summer so far has been the wierd build-up. it's like whenever someone asks me to do something, i'm mentally checking the dates as if i have some big thing to attend. A build-up to SOMETHING.

it's making me really anxious actually. even writing it down feels like a bad omen.

i feel like something big is going to happen, or something is going to end.

i can't even put my finger on it. i'm nervous just making plans or thinking about the future.

that sounds fucked up.

you're looking high strung, sugar.

a month and 9 days, offically.
two years tomorrow, unoffically.

if i could go back two years in time and take back that kiss, would i?

no.

because even when things are shitty, even when he's angry, mixed with the mean-ness, little things he says make me smile, surely that counts for something.

Marry list

My marry list is basically... i never want to get married. but i am so damn attracted to these men that i'd marry them... look them up if you don't know them and prepare to get a hard on.

Dominic West
Woody Harrelson
Benicio del Toro
Alan Davies
David Mitchell
Max Bemis
David Duchovny

and number one to marry?

it has to be Robert Downey Jnr.
oh, my god.
om...nom....nom

here's some thoughts i'm having right now.

jeez i haven't written anything in ages,do people read this,i must send daniel something soon,golly she was cheeky to him,coward,i think i just ripped my top,sleep naked more often,i wonder if i just lost a little weight from my tummy,i always find girls with big thighs and asses attractive,i wonder what he likes,i wouldn't know all his people are so different he would never tell me,i shouldn't be so jealous it was only a kiss and we were apart i was the same,i wish i could sleep easy..i love my teddy croc.

It's been a ridiculously long time.

I just haven't had much to say.
and i've been focusing on school shockingly, and not fucking up absolutely every sort of relationship i have with other people.
sounds dramatic, but people have honestly just got on my nerves recently and i feel like i'm literally choosing who's staying in my life and who's not. simple as.

What am i saying in this blog? well i happened to be out with the boyfriend there and he noticed i hadn't wrote anything for a while and i guess it hadn't occured to me.

hmm.

here's a list of summer things i need to do, as inspired by Daniel Coogan!

• pass driving test
• buy car of my dreams
• pick up my boyfriend in said car, that will be LEGEND.
• go to music festival (glasgowbury perhaps!)
• have sex in a tent
• survive without washing for two days, bokee.
• buy a fake ID to do me for the summer fs
• smoke a joint with ciara in the sun
• swimswimswim in the sea!
• talk to my dad more
• treat my momma better
• dye the ends of my hair red
• try not to drink to the point of not knowing what i'm doing

There will be more coming i'm sure!

:)