She's very very careful, yes she is.

i really, really miss my daddy right now.
i can't believe it's been like 4 or 5 years.
i hope it's not too late for us.
i hate this so much.

Lets take off together, take off together.

touches are light and flawless,
and vulnerable lips gasp.
keeping inside the word disease,
crawling to its escape.
with a scream it's released,
ugly and crying...
no reassurance does it find,
only the cynicism that had been born there.
confused and naked.
a kiss' intention is to comfort,
but exchanged is only desperation.
thoughts float between us,
scared of what to air.
tell me now,
am i just another?
the heart doesn't know,
disconnected.
were you right?
are we all just fucking alone?

"because you've got really long arms. you should use them to hold me tight"

"One day i was hanging out with him and it wasn't even close to christmas. But i was like "wow i'm really happy hanging out with him, it's kind of like christmas" and so i said he smells like christmas in this song. But i don't really think he smells like christmas.

He just makes me happy.
That's it."

oh god, it's so over.

Together's always better.

passion is beautiful.
passion is painful.

I just re-read an email my boyfriend sent me when we had a big fight again.

We'd never said anything that horrible to each other-ever.

Each word is like a punch in my stomach, the meanings are becoming clearer every time.

If this is how he feels when he's angry, then it's just the truth that he's been hiding inside. I wonder if i'll ever be able to think clearly around him again, to have nothing but dumb happiness.

dumb. stupid. that's what I am.

Here comes the sadness that i miss so much.

That lonely aching comes from every touch.

i'm sad today.
summer is almost over.
and i feel like a total failure.
here's a list i made on blogger a few months ago.
i wonder what i've actually done or haven't done.


pass driving test ...NO
buy car of my dreams ...NO
pick up my boyfriend in said car, that will be LEGEND. ...NO
go to music festival (glasgowbury perhaps!) ..ok i did do this one.
have sex in a tent ...and this.
survive without washing for two days, bokee. ...and this
buy a fake ID to do me for the summer fs ...didn't need one in the end.
smoke a joint with ciara in the sun ...it wasn't in the sun but we did at some point.
swimswimswim in the sea! ...NO
talk to my dad more ...NO
treat my momma better ...probably not.
dye the ends of my hair red ...NO
try not to drink to the point of not knowing what i'm doing ...NO.

Well done, summer plans.
oh and welcome, new follower Sian.

you. are. perfect.

You told me I was the neatest thing, you even asked me to wear your ring. uh huh, Mhm.

Gonna get along without you now.

I think summer is beautiful, but boredom and lack of money and purpose is wasting.
I love going out and dancing with random people.
I like big bows, denim jackets, doc martens, and flouncy 50's dresses.
I feel...moved by this lovely song i'm listening to. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fh4l2cubkAQ&feature=related
I have my nails painted grapefruit pink today.
I am going to watch the last episode of Buffy the vampire slayer today. I have watched all seven seasons this past while.
That sounds lame but you have to watch Buffy to realise why it's so great and why i'd spend.... however many hours..i can't even do the math... of my life watching the greatness.


"You're *not* friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love till it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other till it makes you quiver, but you'll never be friends. Love isn't brains, children, it's blood... blood screaming inside you to work its will. *I* may be love's bitch, but at least *I'm* man enough to admit it."


I like thinking of a memory and smiling to myself. Because shit, if no one smiled no one would find a reason to.
I like vintage prom dresses, and keeping myself occupied finding the perfect one.
I hate the inevitable alevel result day. I know I will disappoint.
I like seeing people I haven't seen for a while and still being as close as ever.
I love being cuddled, and falling asleep warm with love in human form...for me anyway, to everyone else he's just the guy with the camera... :)
I'm happy listening to music and drawing pretty little pictures.

You. are. beautiful.

Oh how i love thee, Zooey :)

No, I couldn't help but fall in love again.

I Adore She&Him.

Zooey Deschanel is like this sweet, beautiful, pure girl. I don't know why more people aren't entirely in love with her.