New Blood

New Blood pumping beside me.
Coursing through heart and lips.
Heat flaring with fleeting whispers.
Begging me to go further.

Happiness is Disney

you have a baby but you are a baby.

ok so another blogger just pointed out that my posts are miserable.
and i kinda have to agree.
jeez like i'm a really happy person, i have really everything i could want, good friends who support me, an amazing family, more attention than i really want and a pretty decent social life :)

i have no reason to be sad! so i picked this as a visual representation of how i feel, meow :)

plus my cousin was just here and she had a kid like last week and we talked about it all night with some wine, sweeet!

effort.

i'm not going to ask him to talk, or explain, or change.
because i'm so ...exhausted... trying to get through to someone who doesn't want gotten through to.
who think's they're always right.
who doesn't listen.

i didn't understand when my boyfriend started telling me all these things.
i "can't" understand.
i have theories. none he would acknowledge.

i feel like i'm not part of something anymore.
i make the effort and talk to him, getting tiny amounts back.
pointless. and empty.

Winter Please?

big coats, pretty snow, romantic dark nights, hot chocolate, sleepyness. make me happy.

"i love everything about you"

-"you already know how i feel, i've said"
-"..said what?"
-whispers. "i love you"
-"....i love you too"

the first time. 25.09.09

lies to yourself

If I could listen, you'd dedicate many a song.
If we were still beautiful, a kiss of perfection would be our calling card.
If our hearts rang out with anything but lust, I'd hold yours so close to mine.
If my touch made your skin tingle, any doubts would perish.
If your voice was still sweet, I'd sew every word, and wear my heart on my sleeve once more.
If my hand could guide you, I'd bring you to the ocean.
I'd reach inside, and rip everything disgusting from our bodies.
Let them float away.