effort.

i'm not going to ask him to talk, or explain, or change.
because i'm so ...exhausted... trying to get through to someone who doesn't want gotten through to.
who think's they're always right.
who doesn't listen.

i didn't understand when my boyfriend started telling me all these things.
i "can't" understand.
i have theories. none he would acknowledge.

i feel like i'm not part of something anymore.
i make the effort and talk to him, getting tiny amounts back.
pointless. and empty.