17 and slightly loving life.

ok so im posting this via my fone which i know is suuuuuper gay but i haven't really talked about my birthday yet. i think quite possibly this was the best year for presents. people seem to "get" me alot more these days :) i got a pandora bracelet and charms, 8 driving lessons, my lisence paid, a pink digibox, true blood series one, a me to u bear, soap and glory shizz, birdcage necklace, mighty boosh all three series, vintage beauty and the beast cassette and massive framed picture. i am loving life.

Don't go out tonight.

(8) When we said, Don't you ever come back, Don't you.
Don't go out tonight, Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you, What is happening?
So whose fault is it anyway, Don't say,
We don't know, We both know that we made a mistake,
It's hard to live together forever, Well, that's what they say,
We still regret what we said, What we said. (8)

I'm freaking out about turning 17, like honestly freaking out.

I really don't wanna be 17.

And i'm upset about everything.

I can't concentrate because i've got so much to think about.

And everytime I try and let myself drift off i can't do it, because there's too much to fucking think about.

I wish ciara was here, or at least i could text her.

Because right now i need someone who's close to me.

And she's the only person i'm truely close to.

I'm fucking worried about talking to The Dude aswell, i fucking don't wanna do it, and i think i'll probably pussy out at the last minute.

I wish he understood.

eughh i can't deal with any of this shit, i don't wanna be alone right now, i can't stop myself from feeling like this. I can't fucking deal with selfishness. At all. That's what is breaking us apart.

Apocalyptic dramas are the worst.

James rang earlier!! whoaaaa nice times :)
We decided that theres like nothing that everybody can do together for my birthday, since they won't get in anywhere without id etc..
And some people don't even wanna go out anywhere.
Sooooo i'm just gonna get a night out with amy, and get like the old crew back together for like the cinema and KFC and then a little sleepover, like my 11 year old bdays :) i loved them!!
Don't know what else i'm doing.
But i get to driveeee soon! fucking right man, can't wait :)

Might post a birthday list blog if i come up with anything =/
My momma's getting me driving lessons, i hope people ask me what i want, because i'm being really fussy this year. And most people i don't even want a present off.

Lata skata ;)