And I thought I loved you then...

(8) And she's trying to sleep it off.. with her head on my shoulder,

And i'm trying to keep it out..of my thoughts when I hold her.

Take all you can from me. (8)

So yesterday was pretty much a lovely/upsetting day. I was meant to go down to my boyfriends new music video he was shooting (he's a fim maker/ photographer type thing) but i slept in, so i met him at the cinema where it was set straight after just. I knew right away that something was up, because he looked really distracted and he gave me this really long hug..

He was upset. it didn't go well.

We sat with his friends in this coffee shop and eventually they left one by one. We cuddled, and he told me what happened.. he sounded really choked up about it, and i felt so crazily protective of him :\

He fell asleep because he works too hard.. and i saw the reflection of us on his laptop screen, and listening to the cure, with my head on his shoulder and his arms around me, and seeing that crazy guy in the backround smiling at me...and those little twitchy things he does when he's about to fall asleep, and him pulling my face to his every once in a while for a sleepy kiss... it was perfecto.

8 reasons why new technology sucks.

1. dvd's. never know if they're fucking gonna conk out half way through! vcrs are reliable! same with digital tv.

2. fb relationship status'. it just puts pressure on people.

3. NEW PHONES ESPECIALLY TOUCH. THEY ARE FAILS.

4. new cars. just because people have stupid ideas that old ones are shite.

5. apps.

6. texts. they're just a way for people to play games with each other.

7. "couple" photo albums. fake. although i secretly love this haha.

8. people tagging terrible pictures of you.

The notebook.

So im walking home. slowly, incredibly slowly as if im waiting for something. i came across this woman there with her kid, but the kid was hidden behind a big wall, and i thought the mum was joking around and pretending to hit the kid with the umberella, but as i got closer the kid was crying. she was so small.

My friend and her boyfriend go to school together. yesterday he brought her the notebook as a random lovely surprise. she was happy for ages.

There is good and bad everywhere.

Drive to a forest today.

so i went for a run in the forest with my momma. then we drove and drove aimlessly. first we came across the shop her dad used to own, boarded up, then her family home, where she lived, then the graveyard..where she's buried.

i cried. i cried because to me, she was a lovely girl who i hugged and laughed with every day. to anyone who didnt know her, she and her mother were a horrific accident in the newspapers.

just love with everything you have. savour every moment, and never forget what's important.

It sometimes doesn't matter how hard you try.

my blog has turned into such an on-the-move thing. i dont know if im liking it. on the bus home. my bus route is really boring, it's like a bunch of fields with sheep. the only cool thing was that lonely chicken fred. he's gone now. dammit.

last class was wierd. we got our coursework back, and i'm finally finding my way, the fact i got good feedback made me feel like all the work i've done actually means something. my friend asked me what i got. then stared at his for like 10 minutes. he tries so hard...

Know what i miss..?

i miss the nights he would text me all night.. i would stay awake to ask him the stupidest questions.. i'd strain to keep my eyes open just to hear what he'd say next.. i'd fall asleep with a smile on my face.. and when i'd wake, tired but happy, i'd find two messages, the 2nd always asking where i'd gone.. it made me feel so wanted..

sorry to get all sentimental on ya'll. but i'm watchin once, it always makes me emotional.

Our song is the way you laugh :)

so i'm sitting on my front step. i'm locked out. i don't ordinarily like sitting here because i thought there was always ants here. but i've been looking about for quite some time, and there are none.. do ants only hang out in the summer? it's hailstoneing too, they're slamming off my phone right now. they sorta look like lil bits of polystyrene cups. i like that. i can feel them hitting off the skullcandy lowriders too. i'm cold, alone, listening to taylor swift, and yet..i can't stop smiling :)