Shine on.

sometimes it's easy to put people to the back of your mind.

out of nowhere, i dreamt of her. last night. i dreamt she was alive, we were having fun but she fell. i looked after her. i knew in my heart she was not alive, i had to save her from the people who wanted to pronounce her dead.
so we ran together, her legs not bound to a chair.

they caught us and i hugged her and cried, and couldn't stop crying. and she felt real in my arms, i felt her thin arms and shoulders, and her dark hair in my face.

Drive to a forest today.

so i went for a run in the forest with my momma. then we drove and drove aimlessly. first we came across the shop her dad used to own, boarded up, then her family home, where she lived, then the graveyard..where she's buried.

i cried. i cried because to me, she was a lovely girl who i hugged and laughed with every day. to anyone who didnt know her, she and her mother were a horrific accident in the newspapers.

just love with everything you have. savour every moment, and never forget what's important.