Silence.

And so it is, once more.

A weary head, falling asleep.

Nights of the same.

Again and again.

This is what will become of me.

An empty bedroom, a clenched stomach.

My heart is grinding against my chest.

The door is locked, he hands me the key.

A little less cold.

My fingers release the grip.

...safe?

And so it goes, the first time.

A bag. A card. A note.

My heart relentlessly pounding.

My tongue involuntarily licks my lips.

bite.

My head is a buzz, laugh and laugh.

A voice in my head tries to tell me,

Warns me to be safe when I party.

But I can't listen anymore.

I can't hear.

My body is confused and feels broken.

I touch. I stroke. I shake my hair.

A head to my chest.

Listens to my disgusting heart.

yours.

I am free now, a pretty dress adorns me.

My bare hands a symbol of what is lost.

And yet a kiss still lingers on my lips.

Waiting to be shared.

never.

With all this madness...

I feel alive.

Yet pushing on without me,

I am so silent now.

Snowheart <3

(8) Oily marks appear on walls

Where pleasure moments hung before.

The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this..still life.

Hide and seek.

Trains and sewing machines.

(Oh, you won't catch me around here)

Blood and tears,

They were here first. (8)

Snow's here.

the first time i saw a speck of it, i was under a street lamp, holding a warm hand.

i wanted to take a picture of it.

instead i just stood there and looked at it, until i was pulled away.

Today it's so deep.

I did such a pretty picture in it.

do you like it?

Last night was awesome.

I felt a bit like this...

If that makes sense..

i had some beautiful kisses.

i felt really proud when two strands of my life met and mixed.

and i observed the people i shared a tiny room with in a completely different light.

which caused them to ask if i was ok, which i thought was hilarious :)

i cleaned up my best friends sick.

then i cleaned up another friend's sick, who was only sick because the other chick was sick.

pahahahahaha.

then i ran downstairs with this girl. and we were mesmerized by the fact that suddenly the outside of her house was completely coated in white, untouched by footprints as it was 5.30 in the morning. i pressed my face against the glass, breathed, and forgot everything for about 3 minutes. it was really special to me.

that's all for now.

enjoy the snow while it's here please, as the serenity and beauty of untouched snow cannot be matched by any other sight.