In the car I just can't wait..

so i had a sort of date today. wierd, i know... i met this guy on saturday night and like we got on so well and were texting, and then he decided he would come pick me up after work today and chill.

so we went to this park and he brought his guitar and stuff (he's in a band blehbleh) and he sang songs and stuff :/

golly. like he's hot and stuff but it was unusual.

if i had met him when i was 15 he would be like my dream guy but now.. not so much.

it's like i'm ready for this, but so unwilling.

i promised i'd never sing of love if it does not exist

*maybe i know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts
and we've got to find other ways to make it alone
keep a straight face
i've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable
distance
and up until now i had
sworn to myself that i'm
content with loneliness
because none of it was ever
worth the risk

well you are the only exception.*