Don't look at my relationship status.

I don't even know what to say right now.

I don't know what to think.

This is so fucking stupid.

Instead of communicating, and instead of just fucking compromising,

We're doing this.

He's "single" and i'm trying to be casual about the whole thing.

I'm trying to get attention.

And he's pretending like i didn't ask him if he's going to be seeing other people.

What's the point now?

Hit my self destruct button?

i can't think right now. today i had my first driving lesson, which was so stressful, like i nearly crashed ten times. in school all day i was fucking ill and couldn't concentrate. then i spent half an hour fucking trying to convince my mother that my boyfriend isnt stringing me along. why am i doing this? she's convinced he doesn't treat me well. so i ring him like he asked me to so that he can come round. he says he's tired now. this doesn't bother me, but what my mum thinks does. so im cheeky to him GRRR

Don't go out tonight.

(8) When we said, Don't you ever come back, Don't you.
Don't go out tonight, Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you, What is happening?
So whose fault is it anyway, Don't say,
We don't know, We both know that we made a mistake,
It's hard to live together forever, Well, that's what they say,
We still regret what we said, What we said. (8)

I'm freaking out about turning 17, like honestly freaking out.

I really don't wanna be 17.

And i'm upset about everything.

I can't concentrate because i've got so much to think about.

And everytime I try and let myself drift off i can't do it, because there's too much to fucking think about.

I wish ciara was here, or at least i could text her.

Because right now i need someone who's close to me.

And she's the only person i'm truely close to.

I'm fucking worried about talking to The Dude aswell, i fucking don't wanna do it, and i think i'll probably pussy out at the last minute.

I wish he understood.

eughh i can't deal with any of this shit, i don't wanna be alone right now, i can't stop myself from feeling like this. I can't fucking deal with selfishness. At all. That's what is breaking us apart.