FUCK. why is life and death so horrible. this hwole fucking world is so horrible and disguasting, we're fucked from the day we're born. there is nothing. this is everything. this horrible, painful, numbness. nothing.

i hate it all. why do htings happen. why is it all over.

you have a baby but you are a baby.

ok so another blogger just pointed out that my posts are miserable.
and i kinda have to agree.
jeez like i'm a really happy person, i have really everything i could want, good friends who support me, an amazing family, more attention than i really want and a pretty decent social life :)

i have no reason to be sad! so i picked this as a visual representation of how i feel, meow :)

plus my cousin was just here and she had a kid like last week and we talked about it all night with some wine, sweeet!