i just read old emails, from someone i was in love with. it's like i was blind. i can't believe i didn't see it before, i constantly put SO MUCH into something that wasn't there. i realise what i was to him now.
i treated him like he was the only man in the world, like i was in debt to him because he loved me. i held on to him as if no other man would love me, touch me, or kiss me the same way. like he was the only man with a penis and a mouth. i'm sad we're not friends, but i'm glad i can finally see.
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Cheers for writing all of this. It's good to see that every single time you put more stuff up painting me out to be a total cunt - the more I feel good about myself.
Thanks.
For instance, I make mistakes - I'm very aware of that, far too aware...
...but it's nice to know that my private relationship with you is spread out there for all to see - that (each and every time) you write this wounded; done wrong, style stuff it's just another nail in our coffin.
You take shots at me. Never thinking that when you do, it's why I reach for the phone, then...go on line instead to see if you've hit me again,...then don't bother calling because usually, you have.
I miss you, and yes I love you - I'm not good now and I haven't been for ages. I'll be honest, that's why I pushed you away because I don't think I'm good for you.
Honesty.
Nom.
"i treated him like he was the only man in the world"
Seriously, can you hear yourself Dari.
...eh, got bored.
mate, i didn't ask you to read my blog did i?
look baste, i will always have a place for you, you will always be important to me, but you DID push me away. too many times.
i'm not making you out to be a cunt, i'm only writing about MY part in "us".
if you were ever going to call me, well the time has passed. but i hope, and i'm not just saying this, i hope we can be friends. you mean too much to me for us not to be.
Well have some respect for our relationship not to talk out loud about it.
...and yes, you're painting me as a complete bastard. Which I think is very unfair.
i wrote about our relationship for like two years on this blog, and you never said anything. but sure, if it stops you from getting annoyed, i will not write about you again. i had no intentions to.
although it's about here that i have to point out that you have always talked about freedom of speech, and have made that clear many times but on facebook, infront of my friends. i don't know any of the people on blogger, bar one, in person.
you are a complete bastard matthew, so yes it is fair.
Cheers Ciara, glad for your expertise on the subject.
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