NoodleBear <3

This is the strangest life i've ever blown.

I got my hamster. I pretty much love her. She's George's kid, the one who was all sniffing about last time.

What a little legend.

I don't feel like doing a long blog today, so here's a video.

Oh I called her NoodleBear by the way.

And I don't care if you don't like it.

=D

DELETE YOUR SENT MESSAGES NOW. Dayum MJ.

(8) I wanna rock with you..

All night..(8)

What an amazing night last nightt... headed to thee ramble with Ciara Karla and Catherine. Spent most of the night with Catherine, we had such a legend time. Running around shouting 'Tall guy' trying to find the dude that stole her glasses lol and then everyone started getting texts saying Michael Jackson had dieddd wdf :( So we ran around telling peeps it wasn't sad at all cause we'd been drinking. Next day I woke up and was like Whoaa.. God that's sad :(

Anyway there were a few bad times last night like. B was there along with loser rumor guy. Fuckerr. So B called me over a few times and we were talking and shit and we went outside for a while which was fine but he seemed nervous lmao and I was like 'are you ok?' and he was all 'yeah i'm fine' and I was like 'you seem distracted' and he was all 'yeah i'm supposed to be busy like' so I was like jeez ok and we went back in so he could take pictures again.

So later on, Karen lost her best friend and she had her phone off and we were all really worried. I just kept thinking that the same thing that happened to me last time was happening to her or worse so I was looking all over for her. Finally found her and I was like 'dude where were you? Karens freakin out, your phones off and everything' and she like giggled and said she was outside and I was all 'who with?' and her eyes flickered over to B and I was like.. 'This guy?' and she started giggling again like a retard and I was like Wdf man tell karen where you fucking are and she said something to B and they both walked off.

AGHHHH I was ready to fuckin slap her. Karens runnin around freakin out thinkin her mates been kidnapped or something and she just fucking giggles. Piss off.

Men. And. Stupid. Girls. Annoy. The. Hell. Out. Of. Me.

On that note.. Last week me and Ciara were bebo creeping people and I was checking my picture on this guys page and checking out the comments because i'm normal like that and I seen this comment that said 'hey husband' or something and I was like what the hell so I looked on hers and he was leaving her all these comments like 'how are you Mrs ---------' and 'hey wifey'

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

Who does this? That's our private joke! Who shares a freakin private joke with more than one person. I'm not even annoyed because we were like romantically involved, I would fully be pissed off if a friend did that aswell. If Cait started singing romantic songs in other peoples faces and holding them i'd be like dude that's ours.

I can't even be assed, but this shitt gets to me. I'd rather hang out with someone who says what they really feel be it bad or good rather than a melter who talks bullshit all the time.

I knew it I knew it I knew it.

Here's some highlights of the next day (:

Ponderland

When will I know that I have everything I want in my life, how will I know things are perfect?

I wont.. They never are.



No matter how "perfect" other peoples lives may seem, there's shit beneath the surface. Like ---- and ---- act like everything is fine, it's not! he cheated! Stop faking to yourself, express your love to EACH OTHER not the entire world.

I feel fake too. I only say what people want me to say. Most of the time. I act the way they expect.

I realised I don't care about what the sequel to Twilight will be like. I don't care about Petra's many different facial expressions. I don't give a fuck whether I get that job or not.

I care that my frog is still alive, it needs to grow.
I care whether the people I love, love me back.
I care about waking up with my family and having breakfast with them, I have so much respect for them and i've never loved anyone more than I love my family.
I care about keeping the friends I trust close, letting them know i'm here for them, looking after them.

I try to re-create things that aren't there, better times, but times long gone, from pages of a diary. Torn out. Dated.

I love a subtle key change or harmony in a song. I doesn't take much to make me smile.

I hate disrespect because i'm young. I deserve the same courtesy as anyone else.

I just want a warm hand in mine and words spoken from the heart. I want my father to hug me. I want safety. I want people to feel they need to worry about me, I love over-protectiveness...

I'm so lucky.

I'm Too Cool For The Second Grade.

What do men and clouds have in common?

When they leave its always a brighter day.

Annmarie just sent that. It actually cheered me up a bit (: Because although I had an awesome day with ciara, i'm in a shitty shitty mood. Not doing that job anymore, little disappointed. I was really excited about getting more money to go out and stuff. FML.

Ok so I rang the pet store to see what the craic was with George. The convo basically went like this..

Me.. hey man, i was in there like a week ago looking to get that mother hamster, is she ready?

Dude.. Umm yeahh maybe give it a while like thursday

Me.. I was gonna come down wednesday is that ok?

Dude.. Well what are you looking to get for it

Me.. Ive got everything

Dude.. hold on

*goes away for a second*

Yeah i'm not selling her anymore

Me.. What? why?

Dude.. I'm just not selling her anymore

Me.. uhhhhh right ok

*hangs up*

WDF ACTUALLY FML RIGHT NOW

I want that damn hamster he's grown freakin pervert-edly attached to it or something. Sicko.

Like just give me the hamster.

I'm thinking about stealing "the lil cutey" ;)

Save it and it's little babies from that monster. I have a feeling he's gonna kill it.

SAVE GEORGE CAMPAIGN 2009

Do You Have The Mitchell And Web Look?

(8) You want me to cry and play my part,

I want you to sigh and fall apart.

We want this like anyone else. (8)

Cancelled the "date" for last night. Me and Annmarie just couldn't be assed with those dudes so I told him to leave it. We ended up having a movie night instead like that's far better. Watched nightmare on elm street, evil dead 1 and 2 and dawn of the dead. Well good. Scared shitless after Dawn of the Dead. Couldn't sleep for ages and annmarie was pure making these breathing noises and I thought she was a zombie, was so ultra-paranoid.

Anyway couldn't bring myself to meet him today either he was gonna drive down but i've stopped textin him like he's too old, he shouldn't be at that. I really don't need another man in my life. He was really nice last night though, saying I was "lethal looking" get yer cultchy out lad.

Wellll I was watching Johnathan Ross the other night right and David Mitchell was on it. And he's single and all and I was thinking.. Does anyone else have like a secret crush that they don't tell anyone about because the person isn't "conventionally" good looking? Mitchell is so mine, he floats my boat like (: check him outtt

I wanna know peoples secret crushes now!

Candyfloss Head, Back In The Day.

(8) Everyone asked me

Who the hell is she?

That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair. (8)

Dyed Ciaras hair yesterday oh my god how class.. Transformation much, she looks like she has a candyfloss head ! (: We actually recked my bathroom. And I put the shizz in my hair too and took a shower to rinse it... Umm what the hell I ended up pink. Like my face was all pink. Ciara was practically on the floor laughing. And I had to laugh at her too she ended up with a big soapy mess on her head cause originally the idea was to dye underneath her hair and a bit of the fringe then the shizz went crazy and rinsed through her hair, suddenly her blonde was gone. Bad Times. But it ended up looking amazing. Very Good Times.

How Legend. It just suits her personality so much. She got on the bus and I was like ah ha ha there's my uberly cool best friend (:

She's so excited about her terrapin/turtle thing we're getting on wednesday (: cannot wait. Bless her she's having dreams about it and everything. So we're gonna get.. A terrapin called Dave, A tank for Dave, A floaty water thing for Dave, Maybe some food for Dave.. A motherly hamster called George, maybe a baby hamster called Jeff?.. a wheel and water bottle for George and Jeff.. and we're considering getting 17 fish and some fish food for ciara's boyfriend's birthday (like one for each year) and "the prettiest one will be called ciara"...... Seriously.. How cute are they as a couple like honestly.

Anywayyyy town was good yesterday (: I feel a whole different subject matter coming on.. NEW PARAGRAPH!!

(8) I Keep Knocking On Wood..

Hoping There's A Real Boy Inside.. (8)

Ok so he's back on my mental scene.. Things are so wierd now, It's getting pretty ridicularse..

Like was he rough before? Don't think sooo.. Did he talk to me like that before? Nope.

Did he hold my hand more? Did he ask me what I was thinking? Did he look at me with something different in his eyes, something more meaningful? Did he go out of his way to see me even if it was just to talk? Yes yes yes yes.

Things are so different. There was a time I considered him one of my best mates, I could tell him stuff =/ Now we don't even feel that close.. Even when literally we couldn't be any closer.

Even the last time was different. Maybe I didn't notice. Maybe I'm only realising now.

I think things have only changed so drastically because i'm not a secret anymore. Why couldn't he have just been proud of me?

So now that I see that something is missing I realise he DID care. Trust me to realise this only after he's stopped giving a shit.

This isn't all I have to say on this. In fact this is a tiny portion of what's going through my head on the subject.

Actually I can't even describe what it's like. But I know that it's been months since i've been woken up at 2 in the morning with a text thats made me smile. It's been ages since he's twirled his thumb around mine (no one else can do this..) I can't even remember the last time he held me that closely or kissed me like he meant it, Like I wasn't a person, I was something that might break if he wasn't gentle enough. He hasn't looked at me the same way he did when we held my hand in the rain and opened up to me. That was the real him. Haven't talked to that guy for a while hahaha

Whatever. Gonna be filling in with another job. That's four now. Spar on Tuesday. Coleraine face painting the odd saturday. Lisburn leaflets the odd saturday. Sitting in a conservatory in belfast lmao. Hopefully it works out and I actually get to do it, thanks to candyfloss head, I love you man (:

Outtiesss x

Mutant Sperm And Pet Shops!

(8) You Took Something Perfect..

And Painted It Red (8)

Really upset today, was on the phone to natalie the other day and looked in the tank and realised one of the tadpoles had like proper grown into a frog and had died, probably through lack of oxygen, and the other tadpoles were all freakin eatin it like monsters! I was really upset >.>

So the other one was growing into a frog and while the poles were eating that first one he was pure going nuts, swimming all about the place so I isolated him in a cute wee box with stones and grass so he won't die.

Went to the petshop cause I have no idea what to feed frogs and he said to let it go but a moth was in his box and I think he might have ate that =/ Do. Not. Know.

Anyway this pet shop is pretty gruesome. Like it's the most unclean pet shop you've ever been in. You walk down this alley and there's all these cages in the entry and around the door and you go in and it smells and there's just stuff EVERYWHERE.. like all these bags of pet food all open on the floor so you can get like a kg or whatever and you go through a wee opening and theres all these cages on the left stacked on top of each other practically and all these crazy ass birds squaking everywhere and a freakin ferret practically chewing off his own ear and banging his head against the cage. Theres some freaky red eyed bunnies too. I don't like that type. Then theres another bit at the back that's really claustrophic with fish everywhere. And a turtle.

Is that even legal??

Me and my mate Kirsty went in like a million years ago and one of the fish was dead and I told the woman so I was all 'dude your fish is dead', and she got wierdly defensive and started going 'where? none of the fish are dead. it's not dead.' and I pointed at it. It was clearly dead. She was all 'it's just sleeping.' No it's clearly dead. So she must have just waited til we left and scooped it out hahaha.

Anyway getting to the point, I fell in love. I was in that pet store and this amazingly cute hamster was all at the bars and all and then she started doing this crazy dance/stretch/type thing where she put one wee paw out then the other. Omg i've never seen something so adorable. Then her wee kid came up and started sniffing about. I was like JESUS give me this hamster! and the guy tried to show me this other one and I was all 'nah mate I already said I want that one' and the guy's dad was all... 'um...why? that's the mother you know' and I was like 'I know but I want that one' But i'm going to have to wait a week til the kids learn to like live on their own or something. I might take a kid aswell not sure. Excited though!

P.s I had a dream I married Will Smith last night.....Is that wierd? =S

Yo Yo Yiggity Yo!

(8) She hates that we dont spend much time

We barely see each other at all

She dont even nag me 'bout always working

She just says i just wish every now and then that you’d call

Why does she stay with me....

She’s in love.....

She’s in love.....

She’s in love (8)

Was paintin kids faces yesterday for work... dieee. I hate children sometimes. Naomi dropped her man so I found someone new for her to text.. Matchmakkkerrrr. She's more dead on than I thought. First impressions aren't always correct.

Stayed at Aine's last night Fun Times! She's actually so funny.. We went into some random field where we heard the Blair Witch that time, it was cool there was all these rock formations and we got shit scared and tried to scale the fence but it shocked me and I practically rugby tackled her so she wouldn't get shocked aswell.

Electric fences aren't fun.

My whole week has been a bit awesome, even though I haven't done much. I feel old. It's like I enjoy staying in so much more now, I have way more fun just chillin than going out and getting blocked it feel so utterly stupid sometimes. Had enough to be honest.

Here's some pictures that have made the past while up for me.

Btw, shamelessly took inspiration from Aaron KD Bourn. Check his blog out (: >>>>http://aaronkdbourn.blogspot.com/

Done Homies (:

Out.

Why have you gone?

Oh Right.

(8) Wishing to be the friction in your jeans.

Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him?

I'm just a notch in your bedpost, But you're just a line in a song.

Drop a heart, break a name.

We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team. (8)

I'm glad I left early..

Hahahahaha what a strange turn of events.

I'm glad I made another "mistake"

But damnnnn it was good.

Maturity All The Way Man.

(8) Designer Skyline In My Head..(8)

I'm glad this is the way it worked out.

I'm glad you didn't text me back.

I'm glad I covered it up with swears, not truth. I'd hate for you to know what i'm really thinking.

I'm glad I missed that bus.

I'm glad I didn't do something I might regret later, because I entirely would have. It's hard to contain myself around you, hard to keep my hands off you.

I'm glad you don't care about me anymore, because then I can tell myself that it's easier this way.

I'm glad i'm not "mature" enough to fully realise what i've got myself into.

Because i'm still just a niave 16 year old.

God What Have I Done Now.

(8) You might have thought you didn't teach me much

But you taught me right from wrong

And it was when you didn't keep in touch

Well it taught me to be strong

And just in case you ever thought I would

I wouldn't change you for the world

Because I know you'll always love me very much

I'll always be your little girl (8)

SUMMER

Oh my goshhh

This will be the longest summer i've ever had :O jeeeez and I have such a good feeling about it. I think i've said that already? Oh well. English GCSE went so well today (: I was so happy with it. Section B paper 2 is always my favourite, and this question was quite good "Describe a journey by plane, bus or car" so I wrote a load of shite about takin a trip to Austrailia.. and although that sounds sooo boring now, it was actually really good, I came up with a whole other dynamic of it, i put a story behind everything, it was awesome.

My favourite ever one was "Describe the view from your window" and I wrote all these things with like memories behind them. Damn i'm a talented bitch. No i'm totally kidding... Or am i? ;)

Rekindling my love with all time low! Their cover of umberella by rhianna is also shittttt good (:

I'm done. Summer's going to be amazing, I hope everyone enjoys it as much as i'm going to..

Lets get fucked up!

(: (: (:

Reciprocal? Fuck That!

I NEVER HAVE TO DO MATHS AGAIN....

EVER!


3 more days until summer starts (: