ps.

eyelashes are not magic.
love is a myth.

time

I cried really hard twice today.

It's one less than I cried yesterday.

And hopefully one more than I will cry tomorrow.

Wrote this in my head on the way home from his house.

Arms that warmed me, will not warm me.
Hands that held mine, will not hold me.
Words that thrilled me, will cease to thrill me.
and the eyes that told me, have done finally.

Oh and the kisses.
The kisses.
on foreheads,
on lips, hips, tips
of you
on inner arm and inner thigh
on fingers and on minds
on you and on mine
between cheeks
between sheets
on buses
in rain
under bandstands
on trains
in "Paris"
and on the walk home
by the river
and everywhere in between.
when we wanted.

Kisses that fell on you. and on me. will no longer fall.

new blog.

hey guys. sorry i don't post on here, like ever, anymore. heres my new blog. its actually for my boyfriend. but whatever, you might like reading it.


http://blogforjohnathan.blogspot.com/

I'm planning on uploading a fashion section, where i'll be working on my portfolio and uploading it as i go, so hopefully you'll like that, if you don't like the mushy lovey crap.

toodles.

Can't you see that you're fading.

wow, it's been a really long time since I've written in this.
I've been in Australia the past 3 weeks, and still am. So I've been writing another blog for my boyfriend, and I've been posting on that, even though it's ridiculously romantic and sentimental and stuff, and before I left I was doing my a-levels, and attempting to concentrate on them and things.

I just felt a need to write in this, about change.

Change is a big thing to me. I don't like when things change.
When my mom threw out our old sofa it had to be put outside until someone could collect it. I sat on it all day in a big big coat reading A series of unfortunate events (I was probably 12-ish at the time, maybe a little older), and drinking cups of tea my family would bring out to me.

But sometimes things are sadder when they don't change.

Sometimes you realise that people can say things, dress things up to be different than they actually are, but they are the same person.

Anyway. I'm coming home later next week, and I can't wait to see everybody. I miss my sweet boyfriend and lovely mummy.

later all.

Dream Irish house to rent, along with acceptance into dream university? PLEASE.

i've spent this whole week in bed sick. really i should have blogged right? but i had like no energy :( i did do one productive thing though! i brought my portfolio (along with my boyfriends) down to the south to this art college we want to go to. i checked out the place and all, and there's this town down the road from the uni called Dawkey? or something? it's so beautiful. so we were searching for houses online today while he was over.

i feel like a grown-up. it's wierd, but exciting!

You.Are.Loved.

Romantic in our own way.

There's this website I really like called http://asianposes.com/, it's so awesome. But if you're white you suck, so I made Cute Boy do a couple. These were the last photos of me being 17 :( EVER. damn.

08/02/11

Haha, this actually goes against everything he stands for, it's so funny. but he know's it makes me happy. and he's adorable.

I liked this one because he was so busy looking at me that he didn't notice me taking a photo :)

12/02/11

Then he met some of my extended fam. Which was so cool. I bought this overly expensive carousel too, made from wood, and you can wind it up and it plays this old song "tea for two" and spins around slowly :) We both fell in love with it a bit.

13/02/11

So for my birthday/valentines day, we met on the train which was cool. Then the train messed up and we had to get off early, so we ended up walking past this BEAUTIFUL restaurant that i've always wanted to go to, and even though it was ultra expensive, we went in and made a reservation :) Then we went to the disney store, ahhhh and he bought me a stitch toy! I got him a toy story wallet. It was legend. He took me to the cinema and we watched TANGLEDDDDD which was so amazing :) I didn't even care that I cried infront of him. He held my hand the whole way through and cuddled me and stitch, it was lovely.

This was our hotel! we felt like grown-ups. I got changed in the bathroom and when i came out he smiled and kissed me and said I looked gorgeous. I can wear heels with him too! isn't that rad? and he's still taller!

14/02/11

This was valentines day itself! we went to cafe nero's and had melty chocolate cake. He also bought me a rose on the way down, which was sooo awesome. I didn't even ask, I was just looking at them, and he was all "daryl.. you want one of those?" :) i was like YAY. and see those glasses? yeah he BROKE them. my legendary glasses. we were at the hotel, and he PICKED ME UP and threw me on them! then he tried to fix it and it snapped off. so i was blind for like 20 MINUTES, AHH. then he bought me new ones :) he's keeping them so that people will know he's mine, la la.

anyway. I hope you guys had a killer valentines day. I've still gotta do a response to shannie, i will get on that soonish :) she's amazing!

ps, 30 followers? wowza. i love you guyssss :)

You. Are. Romantic.