I Love You.

So, okay i haven't blogged in a while, but i've been so so busy, doing coursework or being with the man. :) But i actually do have to write about this.

i went to Cute Boys house last night, he got me from the train of course and we got a bottle of wine from his restaurant, and some glasses. we watched Toy Story, and we were playin and stuff. then out of nowhere, he told me. he told me he loves me.

...it was so awesome.

so we're going to apply to uni's in the south of ireland and stay together. :)!

When i was younger, i always thought i'd end up with this "Dream Man".

he'd have beautiful dark eyes, and a mysterious expression. he'd be a gentleman, he'd put his coat on me, and take me out. we'd watch disney movies that we both loved. he'd always smell really good and be as passionate about art as i am. we would lie in bed all day and make up imaginary stories like i did when i was a kid. he'd stay on the phone for hours. he'd kiss me and hold my hand infront of his friends. he would always let me know how beautiful he thinks i am.
i can't believe i actually found him. :)

Happy to be Girl B.

you're feeling sad again.
and i can't do anything.
my arms can't embrace you.
it's hard.
hard with an ocean between us.

i wish i could erase the tone in your voice.
you sound so alone.
and my impatience is my biggest flaw.
i never want to grow impatient with you.
not with an ocean between us.

lets start again.
i want you as my friend.
lets begin a new year.
will you be my friend?

everything will be okay.
and it won't be too long.
so hold on.
until there's no ocean between us :)

Dear John...

you paint me a blue sky and go back and turn it to rain.
you changed the rules everyday, wondering which version of you i might get on the phone. well i stopped picking up.
dear john, i see it all now that you're gone. don't you think i was too young to be messed with? the girl in the dress cried the whole way home.
maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame. or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away.
you're an expert at sorry. and keeping lines blurry.
you should've known.

Can we lie in bed all day and watch it get dark outside? :)

meow, yesterday was so fucking awesome. i smoked a joint with my boyfriend in the snow, and we lay in bed all day in the apartment his family doesn't use. we went shopping and i bought my mumsie some chanel :) then he brought me back to his restaurant and we had a wee beaut dinner with wine. it was SO LOVELY.

i can't believe i'm so happy, at the start i didn't want anything because i thought it was impossible to feel anything for a long time.

...and now i'm falling for him.

it's amazing.. :)

RAWR.

..And happiness comes in the form of my adorable chinese boyfriend.

pfft and there i was, wanting to be single forEVER.

but man, there is just something about this boy that is so different. i can't believe i've been seeing him for like two months, and i'm only realising it now. we already agreed not to see other people. but that was stupid.

a friend asked us if we were going out today when we were in smoking alley because we were having cuddly time.. and i was like, meh i guess we are. why should i be scared of the WORD "boyfriend".

But hmm, he makes me happy :)